Is it just me, or is anyone else out there wondering, “Does the war ever end for the strong”? Just when you think you’ve fought your last fight…you’ve slayed the last beast…and you take a deep breath to gather yourself and the little dignity you have left…here comes yet another weapon formed against you.
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Perhaps, I’m being slightly dramatic here, but these new weapons hit differently. These new weapons of today… my goodness… they take your breath away leaving you empty and second-guessing life. Why me? Why now? Did I not prove myself the last round?
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Is this the point where we pause and laugh together…to keep from crying? You know what they say…misery loves company, right?! For your sake, I pray you’ve discovered an unwavering support system, or at a minimum, a healthy outlet to help you reset. During this day and age, I find it even more imperative to be in sync with your inner strength.
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What happens if we’re tired? What happens if life has beat our a** so much you feel depleted, abandoned, or misled with false hope? After all, we are just humans! Spiritual battles are only one aspect of the trials we face on earth that have been designed to prepare us for something greater [What does this mean, “something greater”?].
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This my friend is why I say your inner source of strength must be grounded by something not bound by the limitations of the dimensions for which we reside. The connection must be charged by energy powerful enough to move planets through the solar system…electric enough to dispel darkness from the deepest corner of your soul… and though powerful, it must be graceful enough to hold and carry you when your spirit has been stolen from the demons in the shadows, lurking for a moment of vulnerability to leech onto your innocence and purity.
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As a believer, the toughest lessons to live with sometimes are the instructions of “not to question”, and to “walk by faith and not by sight”… “lean not on your own understanding”. It may leave you feeling guilty and shameful for the residual confusion resting in your essence, paralyzing you emotionally while left genuinely intrigued to know, “Is there something I did not learn from the previous test, or did I overlook the true lesson? What is it about me that screams…YES! I can take more! Send your greatest warrior this way!”
Maybe, you [like me] simply need a freaking break. 30 seconds, if you will, to just feel alive [rather than merely existing] …a brief moment to experience anything other than grief, sadness, doubt, emptiness, confusion, pain, or hopelessness. Why am I the strong one, deemed durable to withstand any challenge as a victorious warrior?
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No one talks about the exhaustion that comes with being strong. No one talks about the loneliness that comes with being resilient. No one speaks about the scars, though unnoticeable to the naked eye, that linger in perpetuity and continue to sting in times of solitude. No one dares to speak on the fear of not being worthy of a good life when all you know is fighting for survival, fighting for air, fighting to live without always standing on-guard, fighting the temptation to dream because your entire life has been a disaster [complete utter chaos with sprinkles of sunshine to convince you to be grateful].
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*Dramatic pause to gather our emotions as flashbacks of previous battles and the intertwined emotions flood our mind. *
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Do you think you could handle the knowledge that accompany these trials of preparation and what they are equipping us for later in life, or the next life? Would it change how you approach battles against the enemy that intends to destroy every flicker of light in the world? What would you change about your way of thinking and processing of the challenges present in your life? I’m curious to know how many people would dig deep and muster the strength needed to keep fighting. Would your sadness, insecurities, and doubt continue to prevail?
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One thing we know for sure, or rather we choose to believe, is every battle and every weapon formed and placed before us is for a reason. Every warrior of Christ was specifically chosen, and your destiny is UNDENIABLE! You were NOT a mistake! The most important question for you in this moment… Will you choose to evolve to the next level or remain stagnant in your faith and subsequently in your battle against the darkness that never sleeps?
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Stop trying to make your way back to who you were in the past…stop looking for someone to rescue you and fight on your behalf. What if you were sent as the rescue for someone else? What if you are the blessing sent to shine your light as a beacon of hope and navigator to salvation?
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As painful as it may be to read/hear, we can’t always be the victim… we can’t always give up because we’re tired… we can’t always cry when the stress and tension feel unbearable… we can’t always look for help when previous trials have equipped us to be resilient, resourceful, and reinforcement for the weak and battered.
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Stop fighting with the same techniques and tactics that have led to failure in the past. You are greater, stronger, wiser, emboldened, trusted, and CHOSEN! There is no one else in the universe like you. No one else was created to journey the path you have embarked in life… though many people have crossed your path and influenced your direction… there is no other YOU!
With that, we, the WORLD, need you to be VICTORIOUS! Your light must shine forever… your love must pulsate steadily…your smile must warm the world on the highest frequency… your spirit must lead us to salvation because it is He that dwells inside you, which declares you an extension of the Lord of Lord and King of Kings…the omnipotent one with all power in His hands!
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No matter what battle you may be facing today, I need you to conquer it all… for me!
You are more than ENOUGH!
