Many days we wake up completed exhausted, both mentally and emotionally; physically, we could run a marathon. How is this possible? Is something wrong with me? Everyone knows the human body is such a miraculous creation, and we are still learning new things about its functions and capabilities. Some of you, like me, wake up feeling lost. It’s not severe enough to worry you, but it’s deep enough to make lay there as your mind wonders from one thought to the next. Is it because of my Zodiac sign, although its seldom that I acknowledge astrology when searching for reason? Is it because I’m addicted to overthinking? Is it because I simply enjoy exploring the unknown? Maybe, this is adulting, right? This happens to people approaching 30 years of age, right? Life!
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Life is so unpredictable, and as soon as you believe you have things figured out, BOOM! Life serves you a curveball, and now you’re back where you started, in bed and staring at the ceiling and puzzled on how you ended up in your current situation. What did I do to deserve this? Is this my punishment for not giving the homeless man $2 at the gas station? “I promise I just didn’t want to build the expectation that I’ll always have an extra dollar every time I come to get gas or a bag of chips or my favorite candy bar.” Life!
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Wow! If you believe life is a game, please provide me with the cheat codes so that I may give my brain a break from thinking and drawing conclusions. Who knew that mental and emotional exhaustion can build to a point that it leaves you paralyzed? Who knew? One day you can flip a military tank, and the next day you’re crawling out of bed fighting desperately to make it to work because you have bills to pay. Who knew? One day you can’t wait to call your best friend and the next day your phone is on “Do Not Disturb” because the life inside of you that enjoys socializing is simply gone! Lights out folks, because you have nothing left. Life!
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This, this can’t be life, right? What’s the matter with me? “Lord, help me to identify the issue that’s controlling my subconscious and impacting my reality!” We scream these words to heaven with our eyes filled with liquid hope. Our lips tremble as hope escape our eyes and runs down our cheeks. Suddenly, the space around you moves in slow motion as hope drips from the bottom of your chin and falls ever slowly to the floor. Your eyes close as the confusion in your head converts to emptiness in your heart, and you fall. You fall down to your knees as hope creates a puddle beneath you, creating a black hole attempting to swallow you whole. Life!
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Many may believe this is a display of weakness, by allowing yourself to be so vulnerable. But, what do they know? How many lives have they lived? Do they have a direct hotline to the Almighty who has all power and knowledge? No! Each of us, have the right and I dare say privilege to feel how we feel, unapologetically! Donnie McClurkin once said that a Saint is just a sinner who fell down, and got up! My friend, fall, fall to your knees and allow that pain to flow through you and out into the abyss. But, remember to find the strength to get up once again. You’re still in this fight, and you have been equipped to win whether you believe it or not. Life!
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Become the author of your own story as you pray to the creator of words. You will discover that not only will you be blessed with the strength to get up, but you’ll be running that marathon, the marathon called LIFE!
I needed this today. Life is beating me up and I sometimes feel helpless. Thank for these words of encouragement!
As my best friend would say, life has been serving me a two-piece and a biscuit!! Do you hear me?! But, even on our worst days, we can prevail! Believe in yourself! Allow yourself time to make adjustments. Allow yourself time to heal! Allow yourself time, PERIOD!! You got this my friend! Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
Well said. I sometimes feel this way. Wondering why I go through the things that I do. Hiding pain, putting on a front, when in reality and behind closed doors I’m broken and torn into peices. Then, I come to realize it’s “Life”. I know one day I will have a sunny day filled with love and happiness once again . I will reach every aspect that comes to mind. Being human comes with alot of frustration, depression, wondering minds and souls as well. Being human also teaches you the do’s and don’ts of life. I love this post and it really touched my heart . You are a strong individual.
What you described above is what many would classify as being resilient. You are truly a fighter and survivor! The goal is to never give up, and to never allow our rainy days to outnumber the sunny days. Fight for your happiness, and don’t stop until YOU are satisfied. You never know who may be watching you for inspiration! Thanks for reading and posting your comment!
May I simply say what a comfort to find someone who truly knows what they’re talking about over the internet.
You certainly know how to bring an issue to light and make it important.
A lot more people need to look at this and understand this side of the story.
It’s surprising you aren’t more popular because you certainly have the gift.
Thank you so much for your support! I’m simply thankful my writing is reaching people just like you. One day at a time, and more compassionate people like you will discover me. Thank you and visit my page anytime!