Wow! When you’re in tune with the essence flowing throughout your vessel and its energy, it’s still possible for your spirit to go through an experience before your mind realizes why it has been triggered.
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Sounds like the life of a person who has successfully practiced compartmentalizing their pain, doubt, hopefulness, contentment, and focus on handling their responsibilities, right? How many of you have been there before?
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Ever been hard at work and your mind completely fixated on your task with an unnoticeable tightness in your chest? How long did it take you to become situationally aware of how you were easily rattled by the slightest inconvenience? Did you realize that all day you were taking shallow breaths due to the overload of anxiety and your mind functioning in preservation mode?
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How about the time you were talking to your best friend or relative about a normal topic, only to find yourself irritated with every perspective or opinion conveyed in the dialogue? For the life of you in that moment, you could not understand why normal conversations extracted a negative reaction from you.
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What about all those mornings you rose from your slumber with an overwhelming sense of depression and darkness covering your life, despite the fact you went to sleep filled with happiness and hope? You closed your eyes at night knowing you would be blessed with a great day, but from the moment you opened your eyes, bliss evaded you and emptiness paralyzed you.
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As human beings, our mind, body, and spirit are so complex. Just when we believe we have discovered all there is to know about ourselves, elements beyond our control take the driver’s seat and we’re forced to go along for the ride. Why? Why the loss of control at this particular moment?
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Somehow, you’re forced to finally sit down in silence… your eyes become fixated on the calendar on your wall, the computer screen on your desk, or cellular device in your hand and you notice the date.
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Suddenly, it dawns on you… you’ve been spiraling because of the anniversary of one of your significant life tragedies that has quietly approached or has passed in recent days. All those days of feeling on edge, drained, concerned, ire, perplexed, sad, angry, and every other emotion in-between was linked to an earth-shattering experience from your past.
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It’s amazing and yet terrifying that our essence could be in the middle of a spiritual warfare meanwhile our mind is focused on earthly battles [survival]. Is this by design?
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Is it just our luck to move throughout the day without any indication our spirit is fighting, or God directing us into survival mode to prevent our life from falling further apart? Just think about how many heads you chewed off [figuratively] in recent days because your mind didn’t register the weight that comes with that selective day of tragedy.
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Would you have treated everyone with kindness had you remembered the date sooner? Have you reached the point in healing where you have gained more self-control, or are you still crippled by heartache? Have you reached the point of forgiveness toward those who caused you or your family harm, or are you raveling in a pit of fire and ferocity from the lack of justice?
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What do we do if no answer brings peace? What do we do if no action brings comfort? What happens if the emptiness grows deeper? How do we find hope if no one around us seems to care? How do we continue to fight when the world has already moved on and forgotten our pain?
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Is this where we begin seeking other gods? Is this the moment where we explore dark magic? Should we begin casting spells and speaking in tongues? Perhaps, this is where the rituals, secret ceremonies, and sacrifices are activated.
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What does it take to be heard? Why won’t the pain go away? Will the tears ever stop falling? Will I ever feel like my old self again?
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My friend, after surviving immense trauma, there is no going back to whom we once were in the past. The old you died a long time ago, and that’s why your world seems gray and without light. You’re trapped in a past time, and you must break free to begin your healing.
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Declare to those demons of hatred, confusion, anger, pride, doubt, emptiness, and darkness that your vessel is no longer their place of residence. Wake up every day claiming your life will be restored. Guess what? It’s perfectly fine to not understand how or when!
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You don’t need to see the future to know it exists. Declare it so!
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Confidently, choose to believe one day you will be healed. Believe one day life will once again have meaning. Trust there is none more powerful than God and that He has not forsaken you. Be encouraged that the new warrior you’re evolving into will be more formidable than the previous version.
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Be emboldened by the beat of your walk and how it charges the earth. Be electrified by the power which remains in the purpose of your words. Be elevated by the limitless source of energy flowing from the King on the highest thrown.
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Be Evolved… because you choose to be! Be more than a Survivor… because to live means to do more than merely exist! Be Healed… because you deserve it! Be Comforted even in solitude… because you’re loved by many!
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Your story does not have to end with tragedy; it can be the birth of a new life. Become the author of your own life and create a new chapter. The power is in your pen, and the ink comes from the Blood of Jesus!
Be encouraged by the new warrior you’re becoming!!! I’m embracing her every day.
Your strength is noticed by all! Keep evolving!